Undecided

There is part of me that wants to die
Life forces minimal
But suicides criminal
There is a part of me that wants to live
That wants to give
That wants to take
Not forsake
The gift
That has been given
From heaven
Turned into hell
By her spell

But this adventure is mine
This is my time
To use
Not abuse
I want life to fill me to the brim
In loves ocean to swim
Drowning in laughter
Happy ever after
There is a struggle deep inside
With nowhere to hide
This world won’t stand still
So I’ll take the bitter pill
That one day I may acquire
The mystical union I desire